I have been looking at the picture I took of the flower with the word "joy" carved into a stone. That picture is a true symbol of how I perceive joy. Joy in the picture is a blur next to the flower. Artistically it makes for a beautiful picture. The flower is simply a distraction to the beauty and gracious gift called joy! But is that really what joy is all about? A blur next to life?
Recently, I have let life distract me and rob me of my joy. I am very grateful to have a man next to me who is not afraid to call me out when I am being ridiculous. Jonas has been extremely frustrated with me lately because I let everything get me down. I worry too much and ignore the beauty and joy that is right in front of me. This truly is not in my nature and it is tearing me up that I have been acting like this. I have sooooo much to be joyful of. I should boast in the joy of the cross! God has been abundantly gracious to me and I thank him by being pessimistic. What a slap in the face it must be to him! Not only is it a slap in the face to God but to Jonas as well. I don't get to see him as much as I used to. I spent 2 1/2 days with him this weekend and half of it was spent in self-pity instead of shear gratitude and celebration for being blessed with such an amazing man and inspiration.
The devil is conniving and clever. He preys on our insecurities and pushes us into the trap of our sin-nature. Most people wouldn't consider the disregard of joy a sin. Unfortunately, when we do not boast in the cross and deny the blessings God gives us, we are slapping our gracious Creator in the face. I don't think I am alone in this battle. This is something I am genuinely struggling with. If God brings me to your mind as you pray; pray I can find my joy and boast in the Glory of the Lord.
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